I have been writing a lot this week and I have not posted because for the first time it is personal, like real personal! I have wrote, deleted and rewrote again and again. Today is the day I am just going to lay it all out on the line.

Please remember that these are my own thoughts/feelings and everyone is different. The way I handle my life could be much different than the way you do, and that is okay.

Lets go for a 2 for 1. First part will be what I wrote this morning and then the second one is what I have been writing all week.

This week I have been in a funk! I feel like I can’t do anything right, just want to sleep and do nothing! I have more and more idea’s that I want to do and I know I should do after work, but all I do is go home take a nap then stay up and watch TV. How lazy! Maybe it is because Ethan, my son is with his dad this week. Who knows the reason, but I feel like today is the day I will get out of this funk because Ethan will be home when I get off work!

It has either been raining or super hot here and I cant get outside when I should be. The sun honestly makes me a happy person! Sometimes I think of moving, but I would miss my family way too much!

Actually today is my moms last day at her job, she is retiring! Congratulations mom!

Well my writing has been all over the place during this blog, but that’s okay because its mine.

I want to be a better person I feel terrible about this week because I have been moody and just physically and emotionally not there. Sorry.

NOW on to the weekend! No work! All Fun, I hope.

It is okay to take depression medication! For my entire life I have been on some sort of depression medication or have actively tried to stay in a positive/upbeat mood!

Some people will be shocked to hear that I am sure, but that is okay. I am okay with saying I have been depressed and I have taken medication to help with it. I am stable. I am able to work, take care of my son and just be a normal human when I take my medication. Some days are not easy, but I always get through it.

There have been many suicides, and mental illness coming out in famous people, but don’t forget those that aren’t famous! We always talk about it more once someone famous has taken their life or is in the hospital. That just honestly drives me crazy! Everyday someone is depressed and if you just take a minute to ask how others are you could bright up their day!

One of the main reason I started this blog is to get comfortable about writing about hard stuff like depression, suicide, hospital visits, abuse, rape, and feelings. This is my first time actually writing and publishing for others to see and read how I feel about this.

Main objective of this post is YES, it is okay to take medication and do not stop taking the medication until a doctor can help you get off the medication, so that it doesn’t make matters worse.

That’s all I have on this subject for now, more, another time.

Thanks for reading.

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